so i was thinking, and i don’t think we ever find out why sirius decides peter should be secret keeper instead. and that seems like something hugely important?? especially because, at first, it’s hard for me to rationalize
i think sirius and peter probably had the weakest relationship out of any of the others with peter. not that i think they weren’t good friends (anyone who tries to tell me peter wasn’t a true marauder is gonna need to stop) but they probably had the least in common out of any of the others and it seems like there’s a lot of things about peter that sirius wouldn’t respect (especially peter’s desire for powerful friends to keep him safe, which is something i don’t think sirius could have vocalized but he certainly would have sensed it)
personally i think sirius probably said a lot of offhand, casually hurtful things to peter over the years without even realizing what he was doing. james and remus would always be like ‘what the fuck man’ but peter would say it was fine, even though he’d be secretly really hurt, and so his and sirius’ friendship would always have that sort of weakness at the foundations
and so i was thinking about it and i think?? it might have been a combination of things that made sirius choose peter to be the secret keeper. i think that as sirius and remus’ friendship (which was never the unbreakable brotherly bond that james and sirius had but which ran very deep in its own way—though weakened by the prank) began to fall apart in the first war and sirius suspected remus of being the spy, peter probably did all he could to make sure he was sirius’ shoulder to lean on, since james was unavailable, and thereby peter worked his way into sirius’ good graces
i can just see sirius one day in the middle of the first war, bone weary, looking up at peter as if he’s seeing him for the first time and saying ‘i’m sorry for all those things i used to say to you in school, peter. i was an idiot’ and peter shrugging it off with ease and smiling and knowing, knowing that he’d finally found his way in
and the other factor would be that i think sirius, at this time, trusted himself the least of all. even though he knew he would die before betraying any of his friends, by this point his mental state had deteriorated so much and his emotional exhaustion gotten so unbearable that he hardly even felt like he was himself anymore. sirius struggled a lot, i think, with the weight of everything that was happening in the first war and i think it triggered some serious possible depression in him, at the least, which would make him feel like he couldn’t be sure even of his own actions.
and if he wasn’t himself, he might do things that he might previously have never done. if he wasn’t himself and he knew that, then others might know that and use it against him. and so sirius thought he was the weak link, the perfect hole in the order’s defenses for voldemort’s spy to slip through, and to avoid that, he withdrew from remus and confided in peter—
and he was wrong about remus and peter, in the end, but he was right about himself.
#this makes me entirely miserable #i do think however that remus and sirius did have as strong of a relationship as james and sirius #though in a different way #james and sirius will always be best friends best bros etc etc #in the way that your bff understands you without having to talk #and i think that sirius would have relied heavily on james circa 5th year even if they didn’t discuss sirus’s home life #i think james would’ve just /known/ #sirius and remus on the other hand #and quite different people #and i think they would’ve fought often but that would’ve strengthened their relationship #i think they often misunderstand each other and that they’re the kind of people who have to talk through things #but that doesn’t make them less strong than james and sirius #because i think that if james was the most sensible one about remus’s lycanthropy #sirius was the most protective and caring #the most passionate and most fiercely defensive of remus #i think peter would have at one point voiced his fear of werewolves (and understandbly given then the society he grew up in) #and sirius would’ve totally lashed out and james would’ve had to settle him down #and so i think that remus and sirius’s relationship had the most strain tbh #because they loved each other so much but they were prone to arguign #*arguing #so in the midst of the war when tensions were high #and people were terrified and unsure and etc etc #sirius and remus would’ve questioned each other#sirius falling back on remus being a werewolf and well it makes sense bc voldemort offered dark creatures power #and remus thinking well he’s a black that’s what they do #so sirius wouldn’t have made remus secret keeper #and i also think that sirius thought that no one would suspect poor little peter being the one with all the power over the potters #that voldemort would go after sirius and that would be ok #i mean sirius would’ve realized that his family were death eaters and that they knew his relationship with the potters #but yeah i agree with the above as well (via burnupason)
hello yes i would like a story with this exact plot but written by someone with more talent and commitment than me
the fact that a girl being a feminist is a turn off to a lot of guys is just further proof that sexism exists they’re literally saying they don’t want a girl who requires respect because that’s just no fun
is there a word for “i’m okay but it’s a fragile kind of okay so be gentle with me”?
YO LISTEN UP IF A GIRL FEELS PRETTY NO MATTER WHAT SHES WEARING YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP OKAY THEY DESERVE THAT MOMENT OKAY LEAVE THEM BE LET THEM FEEL PRETTY DONT MAKE ANY COMMENTS REGARDING WEIGHT OR HOW CLOTHED OR UNCLOTHED THEY LOOK OKAY JUST SHHHH
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Always reblog The Princess Bride
MOST QUOTABLE MOVIE EVER
You either like The Princess Bride or you’re fucking wrong